Back to starving tomorrow. I have to lose this atrocious Christmas weight fast. I hate it when I go back to this routine. Meh. Green tea, diet coke, a couple bowls of cereal a day.

I'm gonna seek out my dad's address so I can write to him. Ask him why he has no interest in me. Why he's an arsehole. Various things. Might be funny. Mmm.

I saw Nathan a couple days ago. He has a new girlfriend. God, I hope he never reads this, even though I know he knows it broke my heart. Why do I care, he's a pillock? I'll never know. And there I go. Don the happy face. 'Who is she?' 'Some girl you don't know.' Why do they always say that? Why can't I just find a decent guy? Why am I always the girl next door? Mehhhh.

I can't wait to see Martha next week when the snow's said its goodbyes. I see light in her. She's my cousin, turns a year old on the 10th of this month. =]

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Me & My Natterings

My name in the world is Bethanie Jane Mallaband. By some spiraling incidents I ended up with a online persona of 'Cassie', and unexpectedly growing fond of the name and thus chose to keep it for all online endeavours. Or sometimes 'Cassie Beth', to keep some of my original name in there. =]

I'm from England, I'm 16. I love reading [Harry Potter addict], writing... sometimes I'll sound like your typical 'oh my life is crap oh I wish I was dead blah blah blah poor me' but that's really not what I'm about. I love and appreciate life, that I'm here in the first place. But sometimes we can love life but hate what gets thrown at us. Sometimes.

I'm just waiting for life to throw me a chance at something better, different.

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